SSpdDmon
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Accepting even... :icon_smil
For those of you who actually knew me...
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sardeanie
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Yeah, unless you don't spell no good or gots bad grammer. THEN you get the beat down. LOL
COOKIE MONSTER
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Some of the baddest "dudes" on the planet are the way they are because they struggled for acceptance of others instead of their true identities. I know a professional Weight lifter benching 700+lbs, ex-Marine, body builder, awesome person, and of course Transgender but not entirely open with it with all of her sponsors.I'm just glad there is one less M@ in this world.
I must say when I heard of the change, I thought "STFU, that dude was bald and a Marine. This must be some sort of joke." I'm glad you had the "balls" (pun intended) to come out here. Motown is a fucked up group of dysfunctional people, but we are pretty excepting.
Motown isn't nearly as bad as I thought they'd be. Most people, if they don't agree with it, seemed to have taken the high road and simply didn't comment on it publicly. I respect that. It's a personal choice, and it's surely not theirs.
Horsepower Junkies is WAAAAAAAY worse than this crowd. Southern guys, some are poorly educated and of course, they're all ultra judgemental Bible thumpers, except for when it comes to Meth, Bitches, Rims, stealing, hate, Hoes, Money, etc etc ya know that whole thing. I still haven't even told them, I've been avoiding it like the plaque.
^Thank you very much Denny, I appreciate it, I enjoyed spending time at the track with you and perhaps we can again in the future.
Thank you very for the positive words of encouragement.
Thanks so much, It got to the point to where my "Things" that I thought made me a man (Car, house, wife, kid, guns, beard), started to deteriorate. "He", was finished. I had to let this bitch out of the cage.
Classy you are. Spelling for 5th graders.... lol
Thank you. I'm happy you're a higher level of understanding, and non-judgement. I won't forget it!
Ummm Negatron Ghostbuster.... Please, please don't speak of the skin between my legs on my behalf when you're obstinate to it, I have fingers, I can type for myself. But if you're looking for a job, I'm looking for a good personal assistant to take care of my bitch work for me.
lol I'm just playin' girl... First of all, Thank you very much! I don't know you, but I am genuinely flattered.
I did actually lose a few friends. I lost my closest friend, and it was expected. The old me surrounded himself with very arrogant, testosterone driven, narrow minded, duffelbags. Not all, but a few.
The video has been HUGE. It was copied and uploaded on to other video hosting sites so that the Trans community around the world could see it. My Facebook and phone were bombarded with messages. I had my phone on Airplane mode for more than 3 solid days. I had nearly 2000 friend requests (I haven't added more that 200-300 of them yet), and 800-900 messages. I started receiving emails for some pretty high ranking Marine Officers asking for interviews and so on.
I've discovered that Kristin Beck (The 17 year trans Navy Seal) and I rubbed shoulders in Iraq a probably a couple times, as I worked across the hall from her Seal Team Ops Commander.
And most importantly, I have been getting one on one time with people like me who need my help. Families and Friends, as well as lots of Active duty service members! This video was a great idea, no doubt!
Thanks again!
Tony, you've been awesome. I welcome your support with immense admiration!
I'm saddened to hear that you're inherited religion couldn't allow you to view my happiness all the way through the video, but still allowed you to make a post in my "For the people who actually knew me" thread afterwards.
Thank you so very much for not judging... It's not your job to do that, it's your GOD's job I'm sure. I won't forget that He made ME the way I am from birth. I couldn't identify it until I was 4 years old, but I know your GOD had a plan for me all long, and thankfully, only HE and only HE has the mental capacity to JUDGE his own creations, and not the imperfect humans on this planet. Sheeesh, could you imagine if every narrow-minded human passed his very own judgement on me and 7 billions others, that would be undermining their very own Creator.
Thank you very much!
I've stated that before, yes. I'm not sure if any of them have come out here, but I have seen several Motown Guys at GiGi Drag Shows, and I have communicated many times with several other members here who are Trans but unsure if they want to tell the site, or one may not even come out to her family.
That breaks my heart. But they're simply owned by a bogus society. But I have been contacted by a couple of Yellow Bullet guys who are still in the closet. One guy races promod 1/8th, and the other 10.5 outlaw.
Fixed, and thank you for your understanding.
I would be raped and murdered by the believers.
http://www.motownmuscle.com/forums/showthread.php?170980-Little-Update/page24
That's what I used to say! Hay that's Matt's old line... j/k
But so you know, Gay men are attractive to other men, who look, and self Identify as Men, man on man = Homosexual.
Hetero= Men who are attracted to women and their femininity, who look like and act like women, who may be legal women, or whether they know it or not.
I get hit on by straight guys pretty frequently, because I'm no 5'9", 150#s, DDs, funny, attractive, yada yada yada... They have Zero reason to suspect me. After a date, I may tell them, about half will still stay with me, they don't care what I was born as, they view me as a woman.
Every guys I've been with has been 100% straight as an Arrow. Gay guys pick up Twink boys or other guys.
And it's clearly not "IF" you're better off, it is that "I'AM" obviously better off, believe me, I would probably know. lol
Seriously, thanks for your support.
Yes, YES! I'm truly happy. I am now legit. It feels amazing! So many of my issues disappeared as my body slowly began to match that of a woman's.
I'll be around for another couple years at least. I do however plan and relocating and living a more privatized life and career. Until then my HRT transition will be public, and my door is always open for ANYONE, even haters, to come and ask questions so long as they're respectful.
I'm very grateful that the ones who actually knew "Him" are at least respecting ME. It means a lot.
I'm always down to check out cars and socialize, I'm not opposed to going to some of the meets either, I'm just not sure any of you guys actually would be running out and I walk in.
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I never got to meet you in person, but no matter what one believes you're still the same person inside. It's the outside that matches up now. Thanks for educating us and please keep us up to date.
Ever think about opening a non-profit or working as a counselor to provide guidance for others who may be considering going through the same thing, or something along those lines?
Ever think about opening a non-profit or working as a counselor to provide guidance for others who may be considering going through the same thing, or something along those lines?
COOKIE MONSTER
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Thank you! And yes, that is exactly what I am doing for the community right now. I'm writing papers for families who are truly struggling and even feel burdened by a loved one's decision to share the real person inside with them.
I have to be the change I want to see in this world, so I'm trying my best. The problem in finding solid income. It's still very hard for trans people to find a job or even keep their job. We can still be fired and openly discriminated against in Michigan and 33 other states. It sickens me to see my friends lose work over something they cannot control at the hands of people who haven't even been educated formally on Trans issues and standards of care. I'm trying my hardest to help our families affected as well as the people coming out. I respond to everyone, even if it's just a simple question. I have 12 years of Trans research, but that does not make me an expert. I simply am an expert on my own experiences and conclusions throughout my life and transition. I tend to communicate to open minded people better than others.
I have to be the change I want to see in this world, so I'm trying my best. The problem in finding solid income. It's still very hard for trans people to find a job or even keep their job. We can still be fired and openly discriminated against in Michigan and 33 other states. It sickens me to see my friends lose work over something they cannot control at the hands of people who haven't even been educated formally on Trans issues and standards of care. I'm trying my hardest to help our families affected as well as the people coming out. I respond to everyone, even if it's just a simple question. I have 12 years of Trans research, but that does not make me an expert. I simply am an expert on my own experiences and conclusions throughout my life and transition. I tend to communicate to open minded people better than others.
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daveg
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COOKIE MONSTER
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LMAOI went to public schools. It must have been the teachers fault.
If that dumb bitch was your teacher in Colorado, are you sure you weren't just stoned the whole time!? lol
99TransAmWs6
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good for you. I have to agree with everyone else. Whatever makes you happy, Who cares what others think.
H.O. Driver
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You can answer this question if you want to but I understand if you don't want as well. I have seen your daughter in a couple of the pictures, how has she adjusted to Daddy's change? Does your ex wife fight you with visitation with your daughter because she doesn't want her daughter around you? (That is if your ex doesn't agree with your life change)
It is good thing it was done when she was younger and her friends are less judging, well I hope less judging. I couldn't imagine how middle/high schoolers would have treated her over something they might not understand for 10 years.
It is good thing it was done when she was younger and her friends are less judging, well I hope less judging. I couldn't imagine how middle/high schoolers would have treated her over something they might not understand for 10 years.
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COOKIE MONSTER
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My ex and my daughter and I are actually very close, I spend more time with my daughter than my ex because she's in her neurological residency and works too many hours. Up until I started fulltime school, I took care of her fulltime so were are pretty tight. She knows im her daddy, ill never take that away from her, I know when to act more masculine for her, and she has 3 awesome uncles influencing her frequently. I allow her to call me daddy but she insists that Im her "Sona". Go over pictures together, and is pretty much only remembers me as a woman now. My ex still lives on one of our family properties and she is still a huge part of our family. My mom got a divorce over the holidays and moved in with me. My sister, brother, mom, uncle, my ex and I all collectively take careb of each other's children. We're just a big fat Armenian Family.
H.O. Driver
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That is great your family is so close, it is very important to have strong relationships with ex's when kids are involved. My wife's ex and I are friends, I have helped him out with his truck, things around his house and what not. It has worked really well since my wife and him don't get along what so ever. We have set times for splitting time with their son but it s very flexible to if things need to be adjust, changed, switched etc...
I am glad you have a great bond with your family, and the ones that really matter stood by your side. Keep smiling and keep being a strong example to others that are hiding anything. I am firm believing in being honest with yourself and loved ones, if they really love you they will understand and support you. I have told my kids that they can talk to us about anything, and I usually have to pry the oldest into telling me about his bad day a school but he is just like his mother and likes to bottle shit up until the cork blows off the top. He is starting to come around but being 9 is tough and he is not a leader, he usually gets in trouble because he is trying to fit in by acting like the cool kids but he is the one getting caught doing what the "other kids" did first.
I am glad you have a great bond with your family, and the ones that really matter stood by your side. Keep smiling and keep being a strong example to others that are hiding anything. I am firm believing in being honest with yourself and loved ones, if they really love you they will understand and support you. I have told my kids that they can talk to us about anything, and I usually have to pry the oldest into telling me about his bad day a school but he is just like his mother and likes to bottle shit up until the cork blows off the top. He is starting to come around but being 9 is tough and he is not a leader, he usually gets in trouble because he is trying to fit in by acting like the cool kids but he is the one getting caught doing what the "other kids" did first.
Krazybones
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Great well put together video. Though I may not understand, .....good for you. Big props to you being true to who are and what you stand for. What a transformation you have gone through. Emotionally and physically...
...on a side note how did you get that lavish hair back?
...on a side note how did you get that lavish hair back?
COOKIE MONSTER
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Thank you so much! Yeah, and people are surprised how awesome kids are with this.
I'm growing my hair out, yes, It's thin a little still, but I'm going to have to wait another year or so to see the full effects.
I've been on Finasteride and I switched to Proscar and up'ed the dosage 5x. It does work... It's very impressive. My hair has significantly started growing back. But you have to keep in mind that Male Pattern Baldness is a bi product of Testosterone. Even on HRT alone, our hair with automatically stop balding, and generally reverse and start growing thicker, faster, shinier along with a bunch of other things that will happen to you.
I've been doing that and supplementing it more. It's heavy on the liver and takes years. But it clearly works.Thanx a lot! I do appreciate it. But just so you know, referring to a "Transsexual" or someone who is "Transgender" as the Porn born term "Tranny" or "Trannie", like about the equivalent of you calling a black man a "Nigger".
Now imagine if you said to a refined, professional, established black man... It is considered this way by the Mass community (~95%), I actually don't get a offended by it, but I'm sharing this with you guys because I know you wouldn't continue saying it if you knew how heavy that term was to most of the Trans community. I'd rather be the one to share this with you before you say it a weakling. I feel horrible for the older trans community. They have been ashamed and disgusted with themselves for many years not knowing truly who they are, without a therapist etc. Not everyone is born with a binary gender. Not every feel like just a man or just a woman. They get stuck in many perverted phases and many cannot "Man Up" enough to share it with a therapist. I was like that until I was 19.
I was that creepy guy about a 1 year ago. I'm telling you... You can see it in my video, the first few pics. But no one has seen my (In the Closet) pre-coming dressing as Sona pictures even from 2011, it is insane. I'd post them but they're really bad. lol. Either way, I am the same awesome person in the inside, nothing has changed. Thanks Boys
MxRacerCam
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great video, sona.
you've got more guts than pretty much anyone i know.
congrats, girl.
you've got more guts than pretty much anyone i know.
congrats, girl.
whiplash
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Passable tranny? What was done with that ding-go-ling!!!!??? You think she whip s that thing out on people!!!....No homo
COOKIE MONSTER
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It's been pretty crazy. That video is kind of going viral right now, I didn't expect all of this to happen from a freakin you tube video..
Thanks so much
Thank you! It takes guts for anyone to be true to themselves these days. So much hate and garbage on the Television these days it's crazy.
Are you a nigger, honky, spic, wop, Yid, Khik, zipper-head, chink, Jap, or a Mic? I'm just trying to return the favor
I'm just playin' since we're all using the hate speech, which I love, I figured I'd jump in. The Trannies, faggots, and dykes, and other sand niggers I hang around don't like it when I talk like an idiot with no IQ, so since this is a hate safe zone, fuck it! lol
The skin between my legs and lack thereof is ab-SO-lutely ZERO of anyone's business. If I had it inverted, nothing would change. My genotype could still be 47,XXY/XXY, I could still be the woman you hook up with 4 years from now at a bar and would never let you know, I could still be a human, I'd still hate US politics, I'd still be a Marine. I mean, I'm not a fuckin' science project, I'm still a human from Hadley, Mi. I scooped horse shit as a kid, shovelled snow in the winter, and my favourite cereal is still Captain Crunch with the muthafuckin' crunch berries. Seriously, I'm flattered, but I'm still no different. Again, thanks for all the support Boys... I'm actually looking forward to hanging out with some of you this summer.
On a side note, I've lost another 25lbs since my video, and other 15 to go before hitting the gym in April, I'll be making another transition video in the months to come.
Yukon Cornelius
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I don't know you, so don't really expect you to care about my opinion but here it goes anyways, lol.
I could care less what you are into as long as it isn't little kids, helpless animals or anything else that violates the law. As long as you respect me as a person and the fact that I am happily married (meaning don't hit on me when you know that), I can be cool with you.
A good person is a good person, and an asshole is an asshole regardless of what they choose to do behind closed doors.
Whether they are still there or not (which is only your business), you've got a massive set of BRASS BALLS for being true to who you believe you are. A lot of people in your situation may not have been as strong as you, and many take their own lives at the end of their personal struggle because of all of the negative outside influences. Good for you for sharing your story with the world, and hopefully helping others in their own personal struggle.
I may not be an American, but I still thank you for your service. If I ever run into you and your T/A at the track, I'll buy you a beer (as long as you're not an asshole, haha).
Cheers, Ryan
I could care less what you are into as long as it isn't little kids, helpless animals or anything else that violates the law. As long as you respect me as a person and the fact that I am happily married (meaning don't hit on me when you know that), I can be cool with you.
A good person is a good person, and an asshole is an asshole regardless of what they choose to do behind closed doors.
Whether they are still there or not (which is only your business), you've got a massive set of BRASS BALLS for being true to who you believe you are. A lot of people in your situation may not have been as strong as you, and many take their own lives at the end of their personal struggle because of all of the negative outside influences. Good for you for sharing your story with the world, and hopefully helping others in their own personal struggle.
I may not be an American, but I still thank you for your service. If I ever run into you and your T/A at the track, I'll buy you a beer (as long as you're not an asshole, haha).
Cheers, Ryan